Beauty Thing

I know I don’t have perfectly chiseled features, or those gorgeous looks that many of the other models have (Alternative and otherwise). But why should I let that deter me from doing what I love?

I enjoy showing off myself in latex, corsets, fantasy or retro wear and high heels. And you know what? I feel beautiful doing it 🙂 I may have some troublesome areas and parts of my body that I don’t like, but I’m learning to work with them instead of against them. And I also know that if I feel comfortable in what I do, then the end result will be good too.

So screw everyone who tries to tell you you’re not beautiful enough for something! Beauty may lie in the eye of the beholder, but it all starts within yourself.

To Care Or Not To Care?

Many of us say that we don’t care about what other people think, as long as we ourselves are happy with what we do and what we accomplish.

I say: fuck that. Of course I care about what others think of what I do, how else would I know that I’m doing something good and/or right?

With that said it seems to me highly ironic that I, who have been battling a low self-esteem for the past few years, have chosen to engage in something that puts me into constant scrutiny of others. But do you know what the really weird thing is? I get more cranky when I get no attention or acknowledgement at all, then when I get critique that I find unjustified.

Attention whore? Me? Nooo, really? *can you spot the sarcasm here?*

I’d be lying if I ever said I didn’t care, because I do. Part of that I think is because of the “good girl” syndrome I seem to be suffering from, and where appriciation is a sign that I’ve done something well enough. It’s hard to not be affected, and all the lovely things my Fans tell me is one of the things that keeps me going and want to create more pretty photoshoots. I want to do well, I always have, and it’s bloody hard for me to not care. Your opinion means a lot, it really really does ❤

I work very hard to create good-looking shoots, perhaps harder than people think sometimes. A lot of time and effort is put into every shoot and can litterary spend months (at times even years!) to plan a shoot to perfection. The outcome may not always be what I envisioned it to be, but I have rarely left a shoot thinking “this went like crap”. Every Like, every positive comment, and even the constructive critisism, is for me a sign that my plans and ideas were in the right direction.

I learn from every shoot I make and I always use what I’ve learned in the next shoot.

Some day I may learn to not care as much or see my work as the “love child” that I do now. But for now I just work with what I’ve got, I push myself further, make the contact that I need to get where I want to and devote my creative energy to this. Because I love to do this, I really LOVE it! And if I have to work harder than everyone else to get somewhere, than that’s what I’ll do.

I’ll bloody make it work.

Picture by Josefine Jönsson, shot for Viola Lahger & This Has A Story

Allergy Time

Finally, the spring is truly in the air! And with it also masses of pollen >_< I can really tell that the pollen season is starting earling this year because I can’t stick my head outside the door before it gets all stuffed and heavy… I’ve been battling pollen allergy for a few years now (yes, not even models can escape the horror) and recently I got a new medicine to try out. Since the prognosis is that this year’s pollen season will be worse than last year, I now have a really good opportunity to try it out.

I do hope it works so I can work properly during ouside shoots. I do have a few of those planned for the spring and summer, only thing left is to set the proper dates 🙂

Until then you will have to settle for this lovely black & white shot, taken by Natalie G Sundling.

Blog Award

Remember that I told you I had recieved an Award? Well, the Award was passed on to me by the sweet Linnea-Maria who apparently has been following me for quite some time 🙂 Being an attention junkie (yes, I freely admit that), I got really flattered by this – and don’t get flattered very easily.

The rules of the Award says that I should tell 7 random things about myself and then pass the Award on to 15 other blogs.

First things first, here are the 7 random thing:

1) I still sleep with a stuffed animal, an old grey dog by the name of Idefix. But only when my Honey isn’t with me, of course 😉
2) I’ve got a chronic skin condition that leaves it red, dry and itching. It’s Hell during winter but quite manageable during the summer
3) I love food and cooking! I do most of the cooking at home and love to try new things and spices
4) If I hadn’t gotten into philosophy & aestethetics I would probably have studied astrophysics or theoretical physics
5) I’m a huge geek and if I see something geeky (or shiny, or pretty) I squeek. Really, I do ^^
6) Learning about other places and their cultural history is something I love to do. China is one of my favourites and I currently got to see a local exhibition with the artist Ai Weiwei
7) I used to to a lot of roleplaying and attending LARP’s, mostly Vampire: the Masquerade but also Call of Cthulhu. I kind of miss those moments.

There, list done! Now it’s time for the blogroll. Most of the blogs I follow belong to friends and co-workers, or highly inspirational creative darlings, so I’ll just drop a few names and let you have a look ^^

Mashiara (the blog of my Honey)
Imperial Fiddlesticks blog
Josefine Jönsson blog
Circus of Lamia
Tifa de Leone

Most of these are in swedish, but a few are in english or both. Anyway, practically all of them contain pretty pictures and/or geekiness, so enjoy! ^^

New Corset!

After a couple of days filled with stress, anxiety, worries and personal wtf’s I finally managed to get my mood up yesterday.

How I did it? I went and picked up my new corset from the awesomely wonderful Viola Lahger ^^ It’s so beautiful, I just couldn’t be happier! Karin is truly a corset wizard, I don’t think I’ve ever seen her create something that isn’t gorgeous 🙂

So this is how my new baby looks:

Ignore the horrible lighting, spotlights may be good for making the shiny satin extra shiny but it’s hell for the skin – especially my face >_<

But I really really love it 🙂 It will come out a little later on to play with some lovely (and shiny!) latex from Maebelle Latex, I can’t wait!

Latex Beauty

I got such a lovely message the other day. One of my lovely readers has given me an Award ^^ I’ll write a proper post about that a little later, but it really brightened my morning 🙂

Anyway, I had a photoshoot last Sunday with the wonderful Natalie G Sundling. I had a bunch of feels semi-planned for it, with props and everything, and we ended up using no props at all. We just shot and laughed and the result turned out great! She really is awesome to work with 🙂 And quick too, here is the final result of the shoot ^^

Photo & edit: Natalie G Sundling
Latex mittens and long skirt: Maebelle Latex

Red Alice Sneak Peek

Recieved the finished result of my latest photoshoot with Josefine Jonsson Photography & Retouch and it looks absolutely amazing! The fairytale geek in me is more than happy and now I’m looking forward to do more shoots on this theme. Hopefully I’ll get the chance during the summer and autumn 🙂

Anyway, here’s a little sneak peek. More will be uploaded on my Facebook Page (link on the right!)

Custom made Top Hat by Imperial Fiddlesticks Emporium

Birthday Wishlist, Part 1

So I’m suppose to be doing my homework for tomorrow’s lecture, but for some reason I can’t be bothered. Instead I find myself roaming around the Internet for pretty things to put on my Birthday Wishlist.

So far I’ve found this:


Pretty new squiggles, but in other colour combinations ^^

And of course I’ve got some things that’s already been on that Wishlist for some time:


I’m pretty sure that as my birthday draws nearer I’ll find new things to add to it. I usually do ^^