Keeping the Dream Alive

This year I celebrated five years as a model. Even though I took a pretty long break from it all a couple of years ago due to studies, it feels strange to have been at it for so long. I haven’t done nearly all the things on my To Do List and there are still many talented photographers and designers I want to work with. I haven’t gone as far as I’d like, I’m not done by a long shot. I know I’m moving slower ahead than some other, but I’m patient and know that my time will come. I’m creating a niche for myself to make my name in and if it takes five more years to achieve what I want, so be it.

I can’t give up on what I want and what I like to do. I will probably have to expand my horizons, but it will be on my own terms. Not someone else’s.

I’m keeping my dreams alive, even though it’s hard and I sometimes feel like giving up on everything. I have to believe there’s a space for me and that I’ll soon be able to check of that list and feel a little more happy in my creativity. I’m proud of myself and of my work. I don’t compromise with my standards and boundaries. I know that I can stand behind everything that I’ve done so far. And that’s an important feeling for me.

I’m lucky though to have as many fans and supporters that I have, and I’m really bloody lucky to have Mashiara standing behind me no matter what ❤ Without him I don’t know what I would do or where I would be.

He feeds me with confidence and strength. Myself, I feed my dreams with tea, latex, corsets, high heels and weird madness. Oh, and cupcakes ❤

And of course, pretty pictures from shoots ^^


Photo: Belinda Bartzner – Photography, Latex top: Maebelle Latex, Gloves: All You Need Is GL<3VES



It’s All About The Shiny

As the titles states, it’s all about the shiny stuff today. Later this afternoon I’ll be heading over to Maebelle Latex headquarters to get my pretty green dress mended. I took it out for a shoot last Saturday when the little bow in the front decided it was a good time to fall off. I still wore it, with just a quick addition of a rose hair clip to cover up the damage. But that’s not all I’m going to do there. I’ll also be trying on my new skirt that she’s making for a shoot that I’ve been planning since January. I’m really looking forward to see it come to life 🙂

These past few weeks I’ve been getting a lot of new ideas for shoots, all of them involving latex. I’m not going to give out any details, but books are definately good for my inspiration ^^ I only wish I had more funds to obtain all the things (especially all the latex) I want and need for them all. Some day… I’ve been starting a list of the latex I’d like to have, so I can keep a decent track of everything 😛

And speaking of latex, I got my new gloves from All You Need Is G L ❤ V E S the other week. They fit perfectly and I can’t wait to shoot them ❤