Alive and Kicking!

Hey everyone, sorry I haven’t been so active these past few weeks but I have been busy with life :3

Valentine’s Day came upon us and I spent it with my one and only Mashiara ❤ A night at a nice hotel and a lovely dinner at a fancy French restaurant, I think it was our best Valentine’s ever and definitely one of out best weekends together for some time. I didn’t want it to end and I miss him so much my heart is aching… But hopefully he will be here with me again soon ^^

Other than that I’m working, planning some shoots and apply for new jobs. Even though I like my current workplace I feel the need to move up from “just” being a registrar. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with it, but my goal is to be an archivist and I won’t settle for less. But right now I’m happy if I can get the security, and paycheck, that a permanent job will bring (I’m currently employed as a temporary consultant with a shitty salary..).

And I’m all done with studying! At least for now, I’ll probably go back at a later stage but not right now 🙂 I decided to celebrate that with something I’ve been drooling over for some time: Burned Velvet leggings from Black Milk ❤

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Taste of Stockholm

I’ve had Mashiara with me for the past week, which has been very nice and much needed. One of the things I love about him is that he’s as big of a food geek that I am ^^ So on Friday we decided to head over to the food festival Taste of Stockholm. We had our tickets, a small bunch of festival currency and a list of showcasing restaurants.

My expectations were somewhat high and I was not disappointed! Unfortunately we didn’t get to eat something from all the restaurants that were there, but we were very happy with the choices that we made. And it was so much fun to see some of the chefs and restaurants that I’ve only read about or seen on TV! I must admit that I was a little star struck ^^

And now, picture spam!

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“Sugarsalted” salmon with smoked mayonnaise and herb oil – Restaurant Jonas

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Chicken Tikka Masala – Indian Garden

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Haddock croquettes with potatoes and cavolo nero – Adam & Albin Matstudio

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Corn on the cob with truffles, smoked butter & chili powder – Adam & Albin Matstudio

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Thai marinated fruit with mange touts, lime, vanilla & coconut syrup and lychee & peach sorbet – Farang

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Banana panna cotta with chocolate cream, cream mousse and condensed milk – Daniel Roos Pastry Design

We finished it all off with a drink at Linje Tio (Line Ten) and some macaroons ^^ When we left I had a huge smile on my face and we were already discussing how to plan our visit next year 🙂

Keeping the Dream Alive

This year I celebrated five years as a model. Even though I took a pretty long break from it all a couple of years ago due to studies, it feels strange to have been at it for so long. I haven’t done nearly all the things on my To Do List and there are still many talented photographers and designers I want to work with. I haven’t gone as far as I’d like, I’m not done by a long shot. I know I’m moving slower ahead than some other, but I’m patient and know that my time will come. I’m creating a niche for myself to make my name in and if it takes five more years to achieve what I want, so be it.

I can’t give up on what I want and what I like to do. I will probably have to expand my horizons, but it will be on my own terms. Not someone else’s.

I’m keeping my dreams alive, even though it’s hard and I sometimes feel like giving up on everything. I have to believe there’s a space for me and that I’ll soon be able to check of that list and feel a little more happy in my creativity. I’m proud of myself and of my work. I don’t compromise with my standards and boundaries. I know that I can stand behind everything that I’ve done so far. And that’s an important feeling for me.

I’m lucky though to have as many fans and supporters that I have, and I’m really bloody lucky to have Mashiara standing behind me no matter what ❤ Without him I don’t know what I would do or where I would be.

He feeds me with confidence and strength. Myself, I feed my dreams with tea, latex, corsets, high heels and weird madness. Oh, and cupcakes ❤

And of course, pretty pictures from shoots ^^

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Photo: Belinda Bartzner – Photography, Latex top: Maebelle Latex, Gloves: All You Need Is GL<3VES

 

Making Summer

It’s June, it’s summer and I’m trying to finish all my remaining school work before the weekend. It’s not that much work really, I’ve spent most of my time whining about things in my last home exam. Not whining about it, but whining IN it 😛 I’ve done it before, although to a lesser degree, but my teacher seemed to apporve of it then. So I’m hoping for lots of points this time ^^

I’ve also had my lovely honey Mashiara here this past week. We’ve celebrated our fifth anniversary (yes, we’ve been together for that long <3) and otherwise not done much but enjoy each other’s company. It’s been nice to have him here, but I’ll miss him like hell when he leaves..

Next week I’m finally starting my new job properly. I’ll be working full time so posts will be slow to arrive. But I have a few ideas for upcoming posts, mostly photo compilations, but I think you’ll enjoy them 🙂

I also have a few photoshoots planned for the summer. I won’t tell you exactly what they’ll be yet, but I promise they will be awesome 🙂 A bit of latex, a bit of corsetry, some colour and other fun things ^^ This is the nice thing about having a routine job, it makes me feel more creative and it gives me ideas for shoots and other projects. Because I am planning for other creative projects aside from modelling. I have to do something else to expand my horizons and these new ideas of mine will take me there.

But that’s for later, now it’s time for ice cream and make the most of summer while it lasts 🙂

Update Time!

Sorry for the lack of updates, but I’ve been a very busy bee these past few weeks. My paper is done and defended, I’m only waiting to get my grade on it. I’m currently writing my final home exam, due next week. It’s an easy one, but it’s hard to find the motivation to write it – and to not be overly stuck-up and “yell” at everything! But that’s my problem with “discuss freely” questions, I love them but I can’t help but being very bitter and sarcastic when discussing the topic 😛 But it has given me good points in the past, so who knows? Maybe lightning strikes twice? 😉

I’ve also started my summer job, being a registrator at a government office. Lots of routine work but I like it ^^ It gives me money so I can get one or two new latex pieces, a new corset and a new phone. I can’t complain about that 🙂 It might mean though that it will be a bit quiet here since I’ll be working full time and won’t have the same amount of time to write things every few days. But I hope you’ll still stick around, there are going to be some lovely pics posted since I’m planning shoots for the summer 🙂

This little baby will come out to play!

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Oh and I got a new dress recently :3 I’m celebrating five whole years together with my beloved Mashiara and I thought I should have something new ^^ I’m getting him something really special for our anniversary and sooo hope he will like it! No, I won’t say anything since I know he reads my blog 😉

Studies & New Heels

I’m currently hard at work, writing a home exam in a subject I’m not quite sure I understand. For once I don’t think I’m going to feel proud of what I’ll hand in.. I don’t like the feel of it, but I guess that’s how it is sometimes. I only wish I understood it all more since it’s going to be an important part of my working career. But hopefully it will sort itself out, hopefully…

In happier news, I picked up a new pair of high heels today. Somehow I managed to convince my beloved Mashiara that I wanted them really really badly, so I got the thumbs up to order them ^^ We call it an early birthday present for me 😉 I could have just ordered them anyway, but I tend to prefer to ask him since I then won’t have to deal with “Do you really need those?” in THAT kind of voice (come on, you know which one I mean…). He’s so sweet, my honey ❤

Anyways, here they are! I’ll try and get a picture of them on as soon as I can 🙂

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Valentine’s Day

So, today is Valentine’s Day, probably the one day of the year when everyone is divided into two camps: lovers and haters of Valentine’s. I’m a hopeless romantic, so I love this day ^^ I don’t, however, love all the commercial stuff that are being sold as “special gifts”. Teddybears with a big heart doesn’t really do it for me, give me a big cat instead! Or a pink elephant, that would be very nice indeed. Or a box of good chocolate and lots of quality time, I’m quite happy with that. I want something that comes from the heart, that has feeling.

Usually, me and my honey Mashiara will go out to a nice dinner and get some time to ourselves. But this year he’s being held back by his job, and so we’ve decided to do something more special next week when he comes up to me. It’s a bit sad to be without him, but we’ll make up for it later ^^

Anyway, I hope you are all having a great Valentine’s Day, whether you’re celebrating it or not 🙂

Here’s a little something from me and KT Twisted Photography:

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