New Stuff!

My decision to take a break from modelling seems to have been a pretty good one. I don’t feel so stressed and can focus completely on my studies. Also, I’m feeling more creative. I keep getting new ideas, and hints to ideas, that I want to do. That was one thing that I was missing, the feeling of being really creative and the desire to create art.

The funny thing is, I started to feel creative when I got my latest corset – the dark green overbust that I bought from Tea Time. And I felt it again when I got my latest treasure, a beautiful necklace made from a vintage syringe.
And the lovely summery weather might also have something to do with it. Now I can finally do some proper location shoots, and I’ve missed that a lot πŸ™‚

I will stay on my break until June 15th, after that I will only be shooting on weekends since I will be working full time. But I already have a few things planned ^^

Let’s end this post with a couple of pics of my inspiring treasures!


My darling corset ❀ Not completely laced though.


My new syringe necklace from CuriologyOnline ❀


New Latex & Making Plans

I’ve been suffering from a nasty cold this past week so I’ve spent most of my time sleeping on the sofa. I probably would get better a lot quicker if I din’t have lectures and such to go to, but this course I’m taking is rather difficult to grasp so I don’t have much of a choice. I’m slowly getting there though, but when you get tired just from putting on a latex skirt you realize it’s not all gone πŸ˜›

And speaking of latex skirts, I won myself a free one from Collective Chaos a while ago and yesterday I finally felt well enough to try it on properly. It’s so pretty, I really love it ^^




Hopefully I’ll get to do some shoots with it this spring and summer, I’ve got some nice ideas for it πŸ™‚

And since we’re on the topic of ideas, I’m currently planning a couple of shoots with a bunch of photographers. Two are booked to be done in a couple of weeks and I’m really looking forward to them. By now you’ve probably realized that I love creating shoots based around a distinct theme. These two really have that, they’re both different from each other but will be equally awesome to do πŸ™‚ One is also with a new designer!

I may be stressed out over my studies, but this is just one of the things that keep me from going utterly insane πŸ˜‰

Creative Mind At Work

So I hope everyone has had a good Easter, I know I have. Lots of food and chocolate and just trying to take it easy, that’s pretty much how it was for me. I haven’t finished all the chocolate yet either πŸ˜›

This week is going to be a busy one. Not only am I trying to do some schoolwork (it’s bloody hard though when you’re not really in the mood for anything), but I also have two photoshoots coming up. It will be fun, I’ll be working with a new photographer I’ve been a fan of for a while and I know we will do a good job together. Also, I’ll be wearing pretty things from Maebelle Latex and that is never wrong ^^
Tomorrow I’ll be meeting up with darling Maebelle, together with the awesome MUA Colourfulmakeups and the pretty model Starfucked, who will be my co-model on Sunday’s shoot πŸ™‚ I’m really looking forward to getting out of the apartment, meet lovely people and be a bit social. Even though the intention is discussing details for the shoots I think there will be talks of other things as well. For some reason I always manage to come up with new ideas I want to drag Maebelle into every time we’re about to meet up for something XD

Oh well, I guess you never know where your creative mind can take you πŸ˜‰

With that said, I’m also in the midst of planning something really epic and new! Several talents will be involved and good dates will be discussed soon. I promise I will keep you updated πŸ™‚

To Care Or Not To Care?

Many of us say that we don’t care about what other people think, as long as we ourselves are happy with what we do and what we accomplish.

I say: fuck that. Of course I care about what others think of what I do, how else would I know that I’m doing something good and/or right?

With that said it seems to me highly ironic that I, who have been battling a low self-esteem for the past few years, have chosen to engage in something that puts me into constant scrutiny of others. But do you know what the really weird thing is? I get more cranky when I get no attention or acknowledgement at all, then when I get critique that I find unjustified.

Attention whore? Me? Nooo, really? *can you spot the sarcasm here?*

I’d be lying if I ever said I didn’t care, because I do. Part of that I think is because of the “good girl” syndrome I seem to be suffering from, and where appriciation is a sign that I’ve done something well enough. It’s hard to not be affected, and all the lovely things my Fans tell me is one of the things that keeps me going and want to create more pretty photoshoots. I want to do well, I always have, and it’s bloody hard for me toΒ not care. Your opinion means a lot, it really really does ❀

I work very hard to create good-looking shoots, perhaps harder than people think sometimes. A lot of time and effort is put into every shoot and can litterary spend months (at times even years!) to plan a shoot to perfection. The outcome may not always be what I envisioned it to be, but I have rarely left a shoot thinking “this went like crap”. Every Like, every positive comment, and even the constructive critisism, is for me a sign that my plans and ideas were in the right direction.

I learn from every shoot I make and I always use what I’ve learned in the next shoot.

Some day I may learn to not care as much or see my work as the “love child” that I do now. But for now I just work with what I’ve got, I push myself further, make the contact that I need to get where I want to and devote my creative energy to this. Because I love to do this, I really LOVE it! And if I have to work harder than everyone else to get somewhere, than that’s what I’ll do.

I’ll bloody make it work.

Picture by Josefine JΓΆnsson, shot for Viola Lahger & This Has A Story