Yes, I know I’m fairly late in the game but hey, better late than never, right? As for so many others this year has been a mess and a roller-coaster of emotions with both major highs and terrible lows. I’ve been trying to figure out how to review last year and it seems that the only sensible way for me to do it is month by month.
So here we go…
January: My roller-coaster month of all roller-coaster months… It started off not very well with my grandfather’s health deteriorating from the cancer that he had suffered from since the year before. Then I hit a major high with the announcement that I was going to be one of that month’s cover models for Bedeseme Magazine. This is still one of the best things that happened all year and I am so proud! But the world didn’t want me to stay happy for long as on the 14th my grandfather passed away and I was left devastated..
I did manage to squeeze in a couple of shoots though with Katiekat and Lady Tigra, and I got published in Azaria Magazine.
February: Work, work, work.. Also painful funeral and spending time with my honey.
March: Shot an amazing steampunk shoot with Miss Metnal, Katiekat, Naddine E, Imperial Fiddlesticks Emporium and Viola Lahger, as well as a retro themed shoot with Hanna Fredholm
April: This month saw the light of a collaboration between Katiekat, Kya Wolfwritten, Attera Nox and myself for TAMD, of which we are all members. I’m so proud of what we achieved on that day, it was one of my best shoots ever! But the highlight was my 30th birthday that I got to celebrate with both my family and my dear friends 🙂
May: GFB!!! For the second year in a row my honey and I returned to Berlin and German Fetish Ball Weekend for some wonderful and relaxing days with sun, party, latex and cocktails ^^ I also tried my hands on burlesque modelling with Hanna Fredholm and while it’s not really my thing it was really fun to try.
June: My honey and I celebrated our 8th anniversary ❤ Also did some gothic shoots with Lucy Fehr and Katiekat and a latex shoot with Katiekat as my co-model.
July: Finally got to model alongside my dear friend and fellow TAMD member Nea Dune! Of course Katiekat was the photographer 🙂 I also got to shoot with Felicia Püschl Photography, someone I’ve wanted to shoot with for a long time! Otherwise this month was mostly about fancy food and still dealing with the sadness of losing my grandfather, the one who taught me everything I know about art.
August: Got to shoot some dieselpunk latex with my lovely friend Necrinity Art ❤
September: Went to London with my honey and my mother so I could get my final birthday present from her, a lunch at Heston Blumenthal’s restaurant The Fat Duck! This was something I had wanted to do for several years, it was on the top of my bucket list. And I finally got to experience it and it was ah-mazing! I keep thinking back to those five hours of eating, enjoying and feeling like a happy kid, and I can’t wait until I can go back and do it all over again ❤ I also got published in Xpressions Magazine with the steampunk I did in March.
October: The month of bachelorette parties and a wedding. Necrinity and her love, Sire Plague, got married and I had the honour of not only attending her wedding but her bachelorette party as well. Such a gorgeous couple ❤ And a very dear friend of mine got her surprise party as well as she and her husband-to-be was going to elope in November for their wedding. Two shoots also happened, one steampunk with Felicia Püschl and one Halloween themed with Katiekat.
November: Went in for surgery on my ear. I’ve been suffering from a so called cholesteatoma in my right ear (basically, it means that there’s been pressure on my eardrum, forcing it inwards and “eating” up the bones in my inner ear), leaving me half deaf, and the only way to fix it through surgery. No shoots, only convalescence and spending time with my family.
December: Christmas happened and a very nice New Year celebration with my honey. We also sold the house my grandfather had been living in since my grandmother passed away little more than 5 years prior to his departure. I knew it would come but it was still the hardest thing to accept since the funeral. I had spent so much time in that house and still have so many wonderful memories from there and so it’s very hard to come to terms with the fact that I will never be there again..
Reading all this makes it seem like everything has been fine and dandy but I have been struggling with this huge loss all year – and still am. I will probably never recover completely but I also have to try and focus on the positive things that happen in my life.
All I can hope for this year that in the midst of the chaos, sadness and frustration that’s going on I will find some new high points, work on new projects (although I am cutting back on shoots to focus on other things) and be more social with my friends.
2017, let’s do this.