2016 Review

Yes, I know I’m fairly late in the game but hey, better late than never, right? As for so many others this year has been a mess and a roller-coaster of emotions with both major highs and terrible lows. I’ve been trying to figure out how to review last year and it seems that the only sensible way for me to do it is month by month.

So here we go…

January: My roller-coaster month of all roller-coaster months… It started off not very well with my grandfather’s health deteriorating from the cancer that he had suffered from since the year before. Then I hit a major high with the announcement that I was going to be one of that month’s cover models for Bedeseme Magazine. This is still one of the best things that happened all year and I am so proud! But the world didn’t want me to stay happy for long as on the 14th my grandfather passed away and I was left devastated..
I did manage to squeeze in a couple of shoots though with Katiekat and Lady Tigra, and I got published in Azaria Magazine.

February: Work, work, work.. Also painful funeral and spending time with my honey.

March: Shot an amazing steampunk shoot with Miss Metnal, Katiekat, Naddine E, Imperial Fiddlesticks Emporium and Viola Lahger, as well as a retro themed shoot with Hanna Fredholm

April: This month saw the light of a collaboration between Katiekat, Kya Wolfwritten, Attera Nox and myself for TAMD, of which we are all members. I’m so proud of what we achieved on that day, it was one of my best shoots ever! But the highlight was my 30th birthday that I got to celebrate with both my family and my dear friends 🙂

May: GFB!!! For the second year in a row my honey and I returned to Berlin and German Fetish Ball Weekend for some wonderful and relaxing days with sun, party, latex and cocktails ^^ I also tried my hands on burlesque modelling with Hanna Fredholm and while it’s not really my thing it was really fun to try.

June: My honey and I celebrated our 8th anniversary ❤ Also did some gothic shoots with Lucy Fehr and Katiekat and a latex shoot with Katiekat as my co-model.

July: Finally got to model alongside my dear friend and fellow TAMD member Nea Dune! Of course Katiekat was the photographer 🙂 I also got to shoot with Felicia Püschl Photography, someone I’ve wanted to shoot with for a long time! Otherwise this month was mostly about fancy food and still dealing with the sadness of losing my grandfather, the one who taught me everything I know about art.

August: Got to shoot some dieselpunk latex with my lovely friend Necrinity Art ❤

September: Went to London with my honey and my mother so I could get my final birthday present from her, a lunch at Heston Blumenthal’s restaurant The Fat Duck! This was something I had wanted to do for several years, it was on the top of my bucket list. And I finally got to experience it and it was ah-mazing! I keep thinking back to those five hours of eating, enjoying and feeling like a happy kid, and I can’t wait until I can go back and do it all over again ❤ I also got published in Xpressions Magazine with the steampunk I did in March.

October: The month of bachelorette parties and a wedding. Necrinity and her love, Sire Plague, got married and I had the honour of not only attending her wedding but her bachelorette party as well. Such a gorgeous couple ❤ And a very dear friend of mine got her surprise party as well as she and her husband-to-be was going to elope in November for their wedding. Two shoots also happened, one steampunk with Felicia Püschl and one Halloween themed with Katiekat.

November: Went in for surgery on my ear. I’ve been suffering from a so called cholesteatoma in my right ear (basically, it means that there’s been pressure on my eardrum, forcing it inwards and “eating” up the bones in my inner ear), leaving me half deaf, and the only way to fix it through surgery. No shoots, only convalescence and spending time with my family.

December: Christmas happened and a very nice New Year celebration with my honey. We also sold the house my grandfather had been living in since my grandmother passed away little more than 5 years prior to his departure. I knew it would come but it was still the hardest thing to accept since the funeral. I had spent so much time in that house and still have so many wonderful memories from there and so it’s very hard to come to terms with the fact that I will never be there again..

Reading all this makes it seem like everything has been fine and dandy but I have been struggling with this huge loss all year – and still am. I will probably never recover completely but I also have to try and focus on the positive things that happen in my life.
All I can hope for this year that in the midst of the chaos, sadness and frustration that’s going on I will find some new high points, work on new projects (although I am cutting back on shoots to focus on other things) and be more social with my friends.

2017, let’s do this.

2015 Review and a Look at the Future

As we now are about a month into 2016 I thought this is a good time to try and some sort of review of last year.
Last year was a bit of a roller-coaster for me with periods of all the things happening at once, followed by absolutely nothing. Creatively I had so many ideas of things I wanted to do, shoots I wanted to realize. While I didn’t get to do everything I wanted to, I still got to do some very fun and interesting things.
But instead of just filling this post with lines and lines of text I thought I should just list all the positive and negative things that happened last year.

Good Things:
– Me and my honey travelled to Berlin to attend German Fetish Ball Weekend for the first time. We had a lot of fun and we hope to go back this year!- I was published 5 times in different magazines (well, twice by Kultur Mag but in different issues).
– I walked the runway for Cyberesque at Unleashed Stockholm in October. It was my first time doing a fashion show, I was scared as hell but it was so much fun at the same time 🙂
– I got to work with several new photographers, including Post-mortem.se, Hanna Fredholm, Carmilla and Nathalie Holmberg at Fractal Fashion Photography.
– I moved to a brand new apartment with my honey, finally, after spending 7 years in a long distance relationship ❤
– I got a permanent position at my job, woho!
– I have eaten at a local Michelin star restaurant, Ekstedt. We got to sit at the chef’s table and also got a tour of the kitchen! I mean, how many people get to do that unless you’re in the food business?! Icing on the cake, I got to meet the owner Niklas Ekstedt who’s a food hero of mine 😀
– I got to shoot the most amazing mermaid concept together with the most awesome team of talents ❤

Not so good things:
– Didn’t get to shoot as much as I wanted to.
– Felt very stressed over things, probably more than I should have.
– My grandfather got diagnosed with cancer. This was/is the worst thing that happened in 2015. In spite of all the good things that happened the news of his illness came during the late fall, which pretty much set the tone for the rest of the year. He passed away last week..

But 2016 didn’t just start on an extremely low note, it also started at a very high one at the same time. This is because I’ve had two publications coming out these past two weeks, one of which I made it onto the magazine cover! I will post more about that later, but let’s just say for now that I’m extremely happy, thankful and freaking proud!
I hope that this year will contain more creativity for me, as well as more travels. I’m looking forward to evolve in my modelling and try my hands at new things. I have set a few goals for the year so let’s hope I will achieve all of them!